keep your heart up

watch me rise

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 03:17:14 GMT

Life is so much better once it has some direction. I had no idea. I am just sooo happpppy.

I guess here is some highlights that have happened lately:

- FINALLY saw Rocky Horror Show on Devil's Night. Oh man. I love dressing up as a sweet transvestite. I love musicals & drag & frankie & maggie & kenz. I love throwing shit & being loud and annoying in movies. Oh and also going other places afterward still dressed in only underwear, stockings, and a corset, basically. Oh man.

- Kenz & I dressing up as zombies & going to shows with crappy metal bands just so we can finally see Doctor!Doctor! play (they are very amazing & inspirational). Her being so happy because they were dressed as lumberjacks. Having mohawk sex with Kayleen. Then going to an apple orchard at midnight to pick apples. Such bad girls! Going on a quest for Lucky Strikes, not even getting IDed when I finally found them, then smoking them on a big hill & admiring the city. Choking on the smoke & laughing.

- Philosophy club, even though we haven't met in two weeks or so.

- Working at the Writing Center. I get to work with super fun people and an amazing boss, read papers, and a lot of times get paid to do homework/talk. We have candy. It is a job that doesn't make me homicidal. Who knew that existed??

- Hardcore. My love for it grows more and more every day and makes me feel like I'm going to burst. Its influence is making me a smarter and stronger person. I am totally going to marry it.

- I realized recently that I fell in love with Michigan. It pissed me off for a bunch of years, but I really am glad we moved here ♥

In other news, I am sick or being sick of myself for big plans and no action. So, I got some letters to write & some phone calls to make. I'm gonna help homeless kitties & do some other stuff, which I will write about once I do it. Also, going to transition into vegan-ness. Won't go full out for a while because I LOVE CHEESE and also would be a pain for my dad, but yeah.

♥ P.S. - I HAVE AN INFATUATION. Oh yes. I can talk to this guy for hours & hours. We hung out in the library for a long time, and have made plans for a fancy date in which there is wine and he will wear a gown and heels and makeup and I will wear a suit and tie. HIS IDEA NOT MINE. Makenzy says this makes us soulmates, ahaha. It's so awesome. Also, he rode his bike from Colorado to here over the summer and slept in a tent and stuff. WE HAVE THE SAME ROOTS. We are also penpals.

FUCK LJ CUTS. YEAH.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 15:58:33 GMT

Hey f-list, fill this out!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) Have you ever been in love?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) Is there a moment in any tv show/film that touches you and makes you cry, no matter how many times you watch it?
05) Favorite bands/artists?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) When is your birthday?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you could only watch one tv channel for the rest of your life, what would it be?
11) Explain your typical weekend:
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) Would you rather take a plane or go on a road trip?
14) Have you ever been to a wedding or a funeral?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you:
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) How important is your family to you?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Is there anyone you'd go gay for?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Have you ever done something you had previously sworn to yourself you'd never do?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) You can only go to one fast food establishment for the next year, which one is it?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I really enjoy working at the writing center. Having a job that doesn't piss you off on a daily basis is fun! :D

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 20:25:12 GMT

No matter how much sleep I get I'm exhausted. Fuck getting sick.

On the upside, Tiger tonight! Oh yessss
and, day off tomorrow.

The other day I went to the bank and my hot bank man was not there. Very sad times.

lblkabrggghghghghghg
needs more coffeeeeeeeeee

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 01:17:05 GMT

dear livejournal

hi. Tonight I am at Maggie's house with Tara, Katie and Ian (who is up visiting from downstate). It is a lot like junior high, except better because we are unsupervised and don't have to worry about keeping noise down, we have cars, and also laptops. Oh and jobs and money. I like growing up.

Kent is moving back up from Florida which is FUCKING AWESOME.
I want to learn to longboard!
I have tattoo fever and waiting sucks :(
College is super fun
IT'S RAINING MEN IN MY LIFE SERIOUSLY. RAINING THEM. guh
I FOUND THE ARIZONA TEA JACKPOT TODAY. I FINALLY GET TO DRINK THE PEACH FLAVOR I'M SO EXCITED.
I moved in with my dad and it's awesome.

I finally fucking know what I want to do with my life <3

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 22:18:03 GMT

Livejournal ♥

Got back from Europe five days ago or so..? I forget. Anyway, it was amaaaaazing. The buildings are all so beautiful there, it's ridiculous.

Highlights:

-Pretty buildings, especially the churches and cathedrals
-Riding the U-bahn
-Hotties everywhere
-OH MY GOSH, FOOD. SO. GOOD.
-A giant slug! It was like, three inches long, I swear.
-The Prater, which is an amusement park in Vienna, and it's like taking a time machine to the 80s or something. Bitchin'
-Unicorn statue!!!
-Food. Omnomnom.
-Catacombs

I would love to do a semester abroad in Austria. Pictures whenever I upload them.

In other news, I went with Kent the other day to get his tattoo. Of Captain Kirk. Bahahaha, for reals.

Annnnd I saw Harry Potter today and it was amazing overall, except for some parts that never happened in the books and I'm not really thinking were necessary to add in? But, ohhh. I loved all the cute friendship moments in it. Also, Luna. Awwww <3

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 00:07:09 GMT

First off, I would like to say that this song is hilarious.

In other news, hiatus thing? I'm barely on because I'm barely home. So yeah.

Brbssssss

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 21:25:23 GMT

HOLY DELICIOUGASM (delicigasm?)
*_*

Holy shit

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 01:34:09 GMT

Michael Jackson died.

Also, so did Farrah Fawcett.
And Ed Mcmahon.

Celebrity deaths always come in threes says my father.

My mind is oddly blown.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 16:22:09 GMT

So the other day I turned 18, which meant that I rented porn and bought a Wonka bar. I felt so sketchy walking into the backroom. And then I got in there and panicked and forgot to look for Edward Penishands(!!). So anyway I rented this terrible porno parody of the Addam's family and Nikii and watched it yesterday and aggggh. The dialogue was so hilarious and terrible.

I am pretty sure I have pink eye, so that's gross.

Now I have a bazillion open houses to go to. FREE FOOD A'HOY!!

Writer's Block: It Sounds Better When You Say It

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 15:09:24 GMT

No matter what language you speak, you've probably come across words or phrases in another language that sound better than their equivalents in your native tongue. What's your favorite word or phrase in a foreign language?

View 507 Answers

I hate the word beautiful. But in German, schön! Much better :]

Anyway, brb going to graduation.

yada yada

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 00:53:40 GMT

Oh my goooosh. Despite being done with school and having a lot of days off, life has been really busy. Okay mostly with socializing, but still. I'm all burnt out now, but hopefully I will stay home and clean tomorrow! Which, I am weirdly excited for. I registered for my college classes today, and I got new cds yesterday, for the first time in ever. Tiger and the soundtrack to American Hardcore. Speaking of hardcore, Kent is moving downstate on the eighth which sucks a dick, pretty much. Who is going to come with me to get a free cigar on my birthday, or buy a fancy pipe? Who will harass my sister? Who will I make stupid puns with? Who will fanboy/girl over Mitch Clem with me? And so on and so forth.

Here's that wallpaper meme that's going around:

Rules—
01 · Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LiveJournal.
02 · Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
03 · Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

-Firstly, Ocarina of Time ♥
-I will never grow out of my love for it, therefore, will not easily be bored of this wallpaper
-The light/colors in it are pretty.
-Epona! ♥
-Finding decent wallpapers is haaard, and I can't make my own anymore.

F-list, since I have been neglectful lately, tell me something noteworthy about your life recently. Or we can play the ask each other questions game! Either orrrrr. Go go go~

tomorrow is my last day of school.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Thu, 28 May 2009 18:44:34 GMT

The senior issue of our school paper came out today, and it seriously made me tear up. This sounds sort of lame, but I really am going to miss everyone. Not so much my close friends, because, duh, I'll still see them, but the people that I don't know so well. Like, the people that you've seen around or had in a few classes, but never really bonded with, but maybe you planned to? I will miss those people, and those chances.

And, I guess. Reading the articles that the seniors in the paper wrote about how much being in newspaper taught them, and made them who they are today, it makes me wish that I'd been more involved in school activities. Not sports, but I should have done more theater, or joined yearbook or paper. So that's my regret for high school. Oh jeez.
Speaking of theater, that class was a cryfest today, which was somewhat draining. I'll miss it.

So anyway, my goal for college is to be more involved. Even if I have to join something by myself (scary!).

Ugh all that angst about this being senior year has never affected me much. Now it has all caught up with me and I need to go cry it out or something.

This entry is really not as serious as it may sound.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 19 May 2009 01:10:51 GMT

Hey if you are bored and enjoy participating in/voting on/stalking icontests you should go here! Yepperdoodles.

Speaking of icontests, here is something that ANNOYS THE LIVING HELL OUT OF ME:

So there you are, browsing around for some new icons. Oh man, there are some pretty good looking posts, yaaay, you're so happy. You click on the cut/link only to find that oh, you have to join/watch/befriend/what the fuck ever the person's journal or comm before you can see them. Ooh, but maybe if you're lucky the post will be public for a few days! Golly!

Excuse, me, but what? I can't imagine that icon theft is such a huuuuge problem that people need to have all their entries friends only. And even if it is? Big deal. You can message the person who's taking your credit and that should be that. It's not like anyone is losing money or something. What I get from it is, 'Ooooh, I should make people friend me to see my shit, because it is so extra super good and special, and I want that huge number of watchers on my profile11!!!1' You know, because, other people really pay attention to that. What other reason is there? I don't fucking care how many watchers/members you have. It doesn't make me think any more or less of you. I just want to see your icons ;_; Why must you make me friend you in order to do so?? BASICALLY I WANT TO PUNCH EVERYONE I SEE DO THIS IN THE FACE. AAAARGHHHH.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 18 May 2009 01:41:59 GMT

Dear Mohawk,

I miss you dearly. Sorry for shaving you off :(

Dear My Hair,

Grow faster please.

In other news, my family has invented a new tradition! It is birthday stockings, which is sort of like Christmas, only not. It's pretty neat-o, I think.

Mitchel Musso is adoraaaable as heck.
The end!

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Thu, 14 May 2009 01:35:41 GMT

HELLO NEW PEOPLE.

Everyone else seems to be doing these welcome posts, so I am jumping all over that band wagon. I have never done an intro post, because I have never really had the need to.

Basically, I go to high school and then work on the weekends. I work at a breakfast restaurant and it is a pretty fun time, as far as jobs go, I think. I get to eat lots of delicious breakfast-y foods for cheap! I am pretty lazy, but I am trying to change that BECAUSE IT'S STARTING TO DRIVE ME INSANE. I live in Michigan (US)! It is very cold and miserable for far too many months, but the summers here are realllly super nice. Tourists come to my town and eat cherries and look at our beautiful lakes and such.

I find bananas to be the most humorous fruit.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 May 2009 03:35:55 GMT

So, I just checked my end of semester grade for my english class.

4.00!!! I AM THE KING OF THE WORLD YES YES YES. I get to feel all fancy schmancy and get an honors credit for it.

Oh, all nighters. I hated you, but I suppose you were worth it.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 11 May 2009 03:19:52 GMT

My gecko, Ricky, is the cutest thing ever. Seriously seriously, I just want to let him crawl all over meee and I would keep him on my shoulder and walk around my house. Except we have cats and dogs and also I don't trust him not to fall off and die.

I am going to paint him a sweet backdrop for his tank, with unicorns, and other fantasy stuff. It will be funny, because he is like a tiny dragon?
ejejejeje

I should sleep.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sun, 03 May 2009 01:19:15 GMT

The last two days have been so ridiculously fun! Yesterday Katie and I saw 17 Again (where we fangirled over Zac Efron), then went to her elementary school's carnival. There were so many children! Still fun though. Then, went to the drive in with Echo(!), Kenzy, Nikii, and Joe, met Aaron, Shane, and Jamie there. Watched Monsters vs. Aliens (I payed absolutely no attention to), then Fast and Furious, which I tried to pay attention to, but dozed off during. I was only trying for the hotness that is Vin Diesel though. Nikii's parents sent us off with enough junk food to feed a small army, so that was awesome, and I bought cotton candy! Afterward we went to J&S (24 hour diner on the weekends) and we stayed there... hour... two hours? I WAS REALLY HIGH ON CAFFEINE BY THIS POINT. IT WAS BAAAD. I rambled and bounced around and was aaldkajsflajdfljadlfj seriously waaaaaaay too much caffeine.

Today my mum and I went garage saling, ate Chinese for lunch, saw really cute cats and dogs at Petsmart. Then I picked up Kenzy and we bought kites. SHE HAD NEVER FLOWN A KITE BEFORE IN HER LIFE. So we flew kites for a few hours, then hung out for a few hours downtown with Tyler.
I am so stoked for the rest of summer.

Downside: I backed my car into a fucking wall last night. It's not terribly damaged, but there's a good chunk missing, and my trunk is bent. I feel so dumb!

Character meme from keysotosoto129

1. Do you like this character?
Yesssir. Though, not my favorite anymore.

2. What name/s do you call this character?
Gaara.

3. What image-color do you associate with this character?
Blood red. lolz

4. What image-song do you associate with this character?
None? I dunno.

5. What blood-type do you think this character is?
I do not care? I don't even know my own blood type, or why his would really matter.

6. Of all of the titles that this character appears in, what character do you like to put this character with?
Either Sasuke or Naruto. Mm, probably Naruto, because that relationship would be healthier, and not as full of ANGST. Or Kiba! He's fun.

7. What would you want to say to this character?
:oooo I would be too scared to say anything. Maybe... "I like your hair!"

8. What do you want to do with this character?
Hug himmm.

9. Please choose 5 friends with your choice of character.

Whoever wants to do it with their favorite character of anything at the moment.

Mm, sleep time now. Exhausted.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Fri, 01 May 2009 02:29:39 GMT

Even more things I don't get:

The idea that moving somewhere else is going to take your problems away. That the people are somehow different in other cities. Lately it seems like all I hear is, "I can't wait to get away from all the drama" or "I'm so sick of everyone here" blah blah blah. It doesn't matter if you go away and start over. Stay anywhere long enough and yes, you will meet and be forced to associate with people who you don't like and who don't like you. Yes, there will be more people who like to start drama. Yes, you will meet more people who will talk shit about you behind your back. C'est la vie. People will always be problems.
Sometimes you're the problem.

I think this is pretty much only teenagers that think this way, since I've never heard any adult say anything like it. It's getting especially irritating now, because everyone is making or at least trying to make actual plans to move out/away. Nonsense, and I'm tired of it.

Other things I am tired of: my sister. She's being rather insufferable the last few days and I'm getting fed up with her mood swings, general bitchiness, and stupidity.

I am in a foul mood tonight. Time for bed.

Also! Interior design class is still dumb. Debating on whether or not to do hw for that tonight. Ehhh.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 10:24:54 GMT

OTHER STUFF THAT I DON'T GET:

Okay so this is a music video where the Jonas Brothers are all cute and younger, and they are singing a cover of Poor Unfortunate Souls. Yes, from the Little Mermaid. The song is fabulous, no lie. But the video makes no sense??? The song is so evillll and they're in front of this bright swimming pool, harassing old people or something? And then ahaha, they have wet suits under their clothes and they jump in the pool and so do like a million other children and...
just...
what? IT MAKES NO SENSE.

P.S. - I HAVE FORGOTTEN TO MENTION THAT I HAVE A LOVE FOR THE JONAS BROTHERS AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 05:35:38 GMT

Why is it that when people are talking about what they want in a relationship or the kind of person they want, they say that they want someone who will call them in the middle of the night to tell them they love them?
If someone called me in the middle of the night, unless it was an emergency or they knew I was awake, I'd be pissy about it. And probably not pick up. Or both.
It seems way too annoying to be romantic.

Lots of fun stuff happening, but longer entry later. My last essay for this semester is due tomorrow, so back to work!

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 22:47:32 GMT

It rained alllll day today. Now it is snowing terrible giant fluffy flakes of evil. In short: eff my life. The U.P. got 15 inches last night so....

On the upside, since the roads will probably be SHEER FUCKING ICE tomorrow, perhaps we'll get a snow day? One can only hope.

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:42:33 GMT

This just in: Interior Design class is stupiiiiid.

It was fun the first tri, and I really enjoyed it. Now, I don't care and it all seems very stupid and pointless to me. Basically instead of doing my work for that class I am going to complain about it?? Yep.

In other news, I finish training next Saturday, so on Sunday I will be waiting tables all by myself! Go me!

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 05:50:39 GMT

AAARGH GOD DAMN I HATE THIS STUPID GERMAN HOMEWORK.

It is like... this bazillion page packet story with questions and I have no idea what's going on and it's a really dumb story and I hate it and I want to go to bed but it's late already and arhhh D:
So I'm whining about it here because I'd rather procrastinate and make pointless updates than work on it. I have great time management skills. Bleh.

Oooh ohhh and I forgot to mention in my last update that I went to a really awesome show on Saturday (La Dispute, Victor! Fix the Sun, and Doctor! Doctor!, among many others) and and and, even though La Dispute is top favorite bands of ever and I love them dearly, they were maybe not quite the highlight? I KNOW. But I have seen them a few times before and Doctor! Doctor! were these extremely awesome men from Indiana, and they had like, a message, which I am always a sucker for. They were so positive and nice and they sold cookies and were like, climbing on top of crates and jumping around and stuff, and they were crazy and really fun to see. And then afterwards we went to an all night diner with them and I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO PUTS FRENCH FRIES IN SALAD. SO THERE.

Also, I started server training at work and it is not nearly as terrifying as I thought it would be. Yay!

GC_ai@hotmail.com — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 21:57:05 GMT

TODAY WAS AWESOME.

We got our essays back in english, and I was freaked out, because I thought I was going to get a really terrible grade. I thought it was a super shitty essay, and I was up until like, 4 AM or something the night before and didn't check it over after I finished it and it was rushed and such, so, you know, combination for fail. At the end of class my professor's handing them back, and I wasn't going to look at mine until after I left, but then he said he wanted to talk to me after class. On the inside, I was like this: 'D: ohmygoshnoooo he's going to tell me how bad my essay was and suggest I go into a lower level class aaaaahhh' BUT I WAS WRONG. He apparently thinks I should sign up for this advanced writing thing next fall? I dunno the details, but yaaaaay.

And then I got my tax return back, AND KAT I GOT YOUR LETTER AND IT MADE ME SO HAPPY OMGGGG

happy days~